-Heart Invader-

In the secret abyss of me there lies a person no one ever knew. If i tried to show what is that, then there will be no one to believe that its me. Funny at times when i think to go out of the shell i built for reservation of the things that may penetrate my being and destroy the person i engineered to be stiff as one could think but then again humans were made to be just human. In flesh, with feelings, with thoughts and with mind. You may can explore the world and the universe but then again you can never explore one's feeling and what they think in a very certain way. Somebody wants to have an 'in-depth' information or rather a very close relationships with the same kinds yet it is not always prohibited because one can choose to be discreet, one chooses to be just silent in one corner and doesn't want the world to know they exist. If ever i believe all the craps thats covering the world now i could be as wise as men, it may put me in a situation i cant handle but then

A one-of-a-kind precious gem to see, And a whimsical rare beauty You would be enchanted Once you lay your eyes in this lady. Careful not to be carried by the spell, Just in a second you're dreaming to feel Craving the face of an angel but possessed by a devil... Before you know, you are bewitched YOu cant turn back to this temptress, and your self-control is at stake, How can you resist this kind of "witch"? It's magic mystic charm is a weakness to every man, Spell-bounded your heart until it beats fast and tear it apart...

I am tired hiding all the pain Striving not to show my feelings The fact that i am hurt deep with in. What am i going to do to make it lessened? I am not as what everybody sees, full of spirit living each day. They just dont know what's inside me I am not what i used to be. It sweep my heart off its place when i surpass a day without a tears. I pray to God may He continue bless and give me courage to all the mess. I am still thankful that I'm still alive living in this enticing paradise Enough reason for me to fight I know there is always a way to survive.

My voice eat by my heart's deafening beat No matter how I tried to catch my breath. Why I couldn't reach for it? Everytime I'll try, still in the end I burst into cry... Why i have this kind of life? A faint sound then i hear... someone is calling me out there Lending His hand to show me where. My confused mind starts to think Who is this man or is he a King? Slowly i walked in my trembling knees, Crossed-palm i walk through the street. Finding answers to my curiosity Who is behind the hand so good to me.

Mula sa himpapawid natatanaw ko Ang aking malawak na pinupugaran. Luntiang kulay ang syang nangingibabaw Hindi kayang sukatin ng aking tanaw. Sa pagdapo sa isang puno Mula sa paglipad paroo't parito. Huni ko na musika sa inyo Lagi nyong naririnig kahit sa malayo. Pakpak ko ay mapapagod din, Sa paglipad-lipad ako'y hihimlay rin. Sana'y may madapoan pa Yan ang aking munting hiling. Hindi ko pag-aari ang kalupaan Lalo na rin ang kalangitan Ako'y hamak na ibon lamang Nakikipugad sa inyong malawak na tirahan.

You have the face that is unique from mine You have the smile that i cant compare You have the body that i always admire You have the attitude that no one else have You are more that what you say. You are more than what you look. I don't know what's in you heart but i certainly know who you are in my heart You are a must-have friend and most of all you are a sister one wish to have. I am more than blessed that I have you. Incomparable nobody could ever do.

The kind of world we have now, where technology is at its best, where things are fast-paced, what one could expect from people who is just living and savoring the life the world could offer. From teens to adults, of course they already knew how is life beyond one's reach. Being just curious of the things around wont kill you (instantly) but surely could bring you to your doom(sooner than later).Some of us when trapped in a plot of no exit prefferred to choose the path of evil than to suffer the result of the unplanned things.Sex for example...nowadays people are doing this only for fun, for curiosity, for the itch of their body and to cure their worldy needs.What if by doing that there is a certain seed that which you dont know will slowly to grow? What if in having that interraction with the opposite sex may result on something you are not ready for? and what if you are so stupid that never think of some precautionary methods before having an intercourse? Then little did you know.

" Love as if its the last beat of your heart, the last air you could breath and the last chance you have." Many had already defines "love" in different approach, in any depth of word and everything they could possibly express it with overwhelming meaning. But the word itself goes beyond the description of any given definition. It is a great four-letter word one must not try to seek something great to equate the word with just an armor of genuineness. It runs a chain of myriad intense feeling sending one to lose a tongue for it the least one expected. Everybody knows what is love yet only seldom knows how love should works and what is love in the mindless hearts. Time passes by and people's view on love evolves, the meaning came from the root of what they saw, what they feel and most probably of course on their experiences for that matter. From the collective thoughts of various minds to the innocent careless child's view, the main gist of every mentioned luc

When things around you threaten your life to weaken, resulting your hopes to collapse, all you need to do is let your vision focused on the unseen beauty of the nameless hands. A way to divert the traitor feeling that is consuming your strength. Never allow yourself to be trapped in something you know there is no way out but to give up. You set your own rules but not against the unwritten law of fate. Every factor that has been your legacy whirls a knot to your day to day existence, marks may not be visible, the imprints maybe blurred and the visage of you is not really who you are, but tell you folks...there is a mask as great as a clown. If you still did not find the sure direction that will lead you to trace your own title or maybe you already did but you were too blind not to recognize the every clue...then you are left in a one-way motion in your world of your own. My heart sought for a wide range of deeds that hopefully will leave a marks in every heart. People as we knew is alwa

Our love blossoms just yesterday the fragrance still living until today, But could the flair lasts for tomorrow? Love endures through the test of time Love fights against all the odds But could heart solely survive? Love unite two different poles Love stands despite the distance. But could heart take all the missing time? Love is said to be magic Love makes a whirl of hope. But could heart always be willing to tame? Love forgives and forgets Love accepts and appreciates. But could heart bridge all sins be fade? Love is trust and honesty Love makes the best of everything. But could heart erase a stain of unfaithfulness? Love believes with its power Love never failed anyone. But could heart never cease to fight? If love is as great as the world Could it channel the heart to be as strong as the unseen wind?

A spare of time for the quiet souls, Lying in a very cold tomb. The silent whisper of prayers loved ones humbly gift. They passed away under this land of living to meet and join the Creator in heaven. We weep yes... It hurts yes... But they are lucky for they already have eternity. People who are left should not battle a long run of mourn and loss. God is also aching... for man cant accept, He also lost His only begotten son So He exactly knows how it feels. Dead are not dead... they are re-born but in other dimension.

" In life you will realize that the people you meet has a purpose...some were put to test you...some would use you, some would teach you and some would bring out the better if not the best in you...Some may even cause you pain and heartaches, but one must learn to move on...So let go of the people who cant treat you right and hold on to those who loves you back and see your worth." This is the text message i received from my very close male friend (the others are all gays) when i asked him if men could ever let go of the one they love. The contents made me think, and the mind and heart start to have a sort of confusion. Simply it did tore the chasm of my sensitivity and cant refrain the pouring of the silver droplets upon my face as i realize I am in a brink of so many doubts towards someone i barely knew. Feels like i was inside a maze where there is no exit made for me. My brain cant win over the dupeness of my heart even if there's no sure if i get the same feeling, s

Gun fires...people screaming.. trucks running to-and-fro... Endless noise ears are tired. A scary scene fits not to the mind of a child. Lifeless cold bodies are lying next to their innocent eyes Self-centered citizens who could kill to fight to what they think is right. Pity those children who doesnt know the answers. Everyone is longing for peace, An army of souls hopefully appeal, In every heart sobriety reigns at last. Blood and sweat mix together Who will be the one to first quit? Those who anticipate holding their breathe or those who struggle up to the last minute? No one knows...no one knows... Understanding seems hiding somewhere, One blood...one race... Now it doesnt even matter. We are created in one same step Why make it hard to who shall rightfully rule... Exchanging words of different thoughts Opinions are laid, one gets striked. Hard to solve because of hard-headed people. Ruthless hearts full of vengeance Many lives are already sacrificed. OHHH

This is for my beloved sister... You fell in love at 22… Blitheness is shown all over you. I could see in your eyes love glisten And your aura is simply stunning. Everyday you live with anticipation His sweet words that make you smile and shine With unexplainable emotion playing in your heart You are in love at last! You fell in love at 22… Unexpected to happen You really didn’t think so But cupid hit your heart And there’s nothing more you can do Oh dear…surely you are now in love! You fell in love at 22… I wish nothing but all the best for you. Just always remember to believe in love And rest is up to your heart. Don’t worry I’m just here Forevermore by your side. - JHAI -

An oddly confession from an almost perfect person was like a bomb that shake the whole society and rocked the hemisphere in no time, what if you are that person who happens to be the subject of everything spinning around? It's quiet entertaining, folks loves gossips and those senseless craps. New topics, new dish in the table, certainly that's a best-seller. You will be a celebrity packed in a hot decors defining what you are but not of who you are. Enjoy swimming while you are still the superlative yet in a very sordid background of the queer famous crowd. It's either you will be drown or it will be the reason to hit another heights for you. True or not it wont be an exception to the sensitive senses of the hungry-quick tongue mass. Some gets a drop of fine feelings, some get offended and some just laugh it out. Ohhh...isn't it familiar? We lived with it, people are always curious about new rumours that's fresh from the oven and served in a detailed idle plate. Can

Another blocked night again for me, my mind was clogged by something i cant pinpoint. The ideas i was trying to tame for an immediate output is as elusive as a myth. My brain nerves are in the confused state, they create a friction that rattles it to malfunction and ends with nothing coming up from my head. Spending the night just holding up the slim pencil and staring at the blank sheet of paper is really a waste of time. This is a dilemma i always find hard to cure, i already conduct some "brain exercise" whatsoever blah blah for mental functions and intellectual performance in order to keep it cranking then and now. What a state i am battling, but still i'm trying my whole ass of it to overcome the division that blocked my cells to be back at its work-again (hahahahaa...hopefully) . I would not mind if i'd come out with a non-sense things on this page, (this is mine!) Well, so much of words that spilling out into my mouth (rather on hand), i know sometimes its al

Somehow i started to doubt love, if ain't for my heart i should not be thinking now. My mind would not be boggled by uncertainties that could stained my feelings and thoughts to flinch... Nothing could be more painful than seeing your love slipping-out into your hands. Yes i can dare to be hurt ten times or so and i would freely take the every pang, just not to let go and missed the chance to feel love and be loved. But what if its already enough and you tried the damnedest just to prove the worth of love? Would you give-up or let your heart to fall more deeply? Every one knows how love works...mysteriously. Someday...I will have someone that doesnt give up on me... and someday...love will strike back to nestle infinitely...

( A story of an unknown girl...) Her childhood was molded and chiseled with a very fine memories, she got a brood of friends, loving family and happy living despite of being just a poor citizen in a rural place. She lives with so much spirit and enthusiasm that was so rare to spend it everyday. But later would she know that her world will soon turn to a drastic change. Her gathered unfathomed moments collapsed as it caught her in both ends, she never expected it to happen, but fate played the rhythm so well that she cant make any contest. Her thoughts was a way too far from the things going on and the dealings of reality, nothing more she can do about it but to embrace and accept the harsh flip of it all. It is so hard to leave the haven that she got used to live, the oasis of all her being and the place that filled her memory bank. She cant help the tears and let them just flow...secretly, her heart stay still with a pensile throb. It pitched her sharply that left her nowhere...she ne

Here lies a pretending heart... So firm, so great, with all its might... Master the course of being an actor, Every sinew means to simulate... It could take any range of a worst talk A great fake outside the shell. No one could predict this callous heart... How or what made it so dense. Many had given their judgement Still the secret remains beyond the shape... The hidden color is yet to come. Play must go on with this feign heart... If only they knew...if only they knew... The pretending heart was a putrid one... very untrue and full of lies... Truth is...it is so weak but needs to hide. For its the way of the pretending heart.

" I wrote this poem way back in our lunatic days with my friends...a trade for a dare we agreed." If i will love a man I will love him as i can but i don't give a damn to those foolish "Adam". If ever the time comes I'll meet my someone who will love me as i am I will never be afraid to gamble for the love of that man. And if also we are not destined to be one I will still wait for you my dream man Until my heart's beat gone... "Gosh! I really laugh myself while reading this ...but i admit all words written was all true."

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Exactly four years already since that tragic loss of my supposedly first baby, of course no matter what i do to buried that incident, i just cant. It leaves me something to hold and hope, but all was just a memory already, a beautiful memory of my unborn angel that i did not have a chance to cuddle and held in my arms, yet she doesn't left me in an imaginary land. Now, I am on my way to be said a fully-certified mom (8 months to date and its boy this time). All my love ones are very eager and excited already. Joyful hearts and happy thoughts filled the air and I just cant contained the shower of their love and care. As myself is more excited as they are, I cant wait the time to finally see my angel, hear his cry and feel his warmth against mine. What kind of a mother would i be to him? Could i fulfill the responsibility and would i be the best mom? But surely i will be the mom that he could be proud of. I wanted to be there and share all his "firsts&qu

Hhhmmm...indulgence is boundless with these insanely sweet duo madness. It steals my heart every time it touches my delicate cant-wait tongue. The beat of my fist-like muscle on my chest leap twice while waiting for it into my opened-mouth. Luscious..soft...and sweet...ohhh...a heavenly feeling I am craving for. Cool...flavorful-chilled sweet creamy sensation that makes me quiver with so much delight and tickles the every string of my taste buds. These two tandem was just one of my weaknesses that surely i cant resist. I can dive into it anytime without a guilt feeling, sweet-tooth yes, its very obvious. Ice cream makes me calm when in a "hot" mood or just feeling a little bit warm, it has the soothing effect that infiltrate and pacify me. It serves as my diversion and a food-mate. The freezing coolness that melts and the flavors that fit..wow..simply delirously delicious. Chocolate on the other hand, make me forget whatever i have in mind but at the same time it fuels my br

Dwelling with a multi-tunes in a world very peculiar... A total stranger playing a new symphony Unveiled in a different kind of way. The aura that is the afraid of all driven by a selfless reason. A particular one lost soul Praying to be accepted in a whole new world... Here he stands with pride and honor one great man at the center of the pinnacle... At last heart's wish is granted... In a culmination he never really expected Take the steps...rule the stage.

I've been looking for a particular star amid the countless, one stood up. Yet it was shielded with an unknown element. Disguised in many deceiving colors in any way i cant decode. If tailing you is like swimming in a vast ocean hail all creatures, i will befriend the strange. If fate w0n't reveal your true shine fittest of all...come join the force! If believing in a fixed will is impossible I will tame the wildest standing hope. If ever i will find the key to your identity, The luckiest living all over the galaxy was bestowed upon me... I haunted an oh! so rare gem incomparably Heaven and Earth lets rejoice this feast!

Tonight I am waiting for Mr.Moon to kiss me goodnight, but somehow he is hiding beneath those thick clouds, When i saw him..he just passed me by! Even the million stars refuse to twinkle somewhat they planned it and blow me a riddle. My eyes already wanted to rest and sleep yet my thoughts is very much awake. Tightly i hugged a pillow hoping a profound sleep awaits... At last darkness overtakes me. A thief at night lurking at side... one glaze of a silhouette chasing the dreams intruding my peace... The enticing dream in a fairytale land was stole by an unknown strange man.

Oh! Dear playful Cupid... Guide my heart with all your presence May it beat for someone who deserve. Don't let anyone make fool out of it Help me always when my heart ache. May it recovers soon than I expect. Cast out all the hatred reigning And may love wash its pain Sealed my heart from inconceivable feelings Push it to the chamber of good will and let no one tempt its excellence. Pour me even just a bit of your undisputable wisdom of love fate. I'll just pray your arrow won't miss the heart you are going to hit. May you wipe my tears when my heart is not in its place And don't make me lost my patience 'till my true love comes to its existence...

Mind is blocked and has nothing to think... Sitting alone surrounded with silence Heads-up staring at the ceiling . Troubled brain and cant help it. Little noises is already a pain in the neck. Pure blank...no trace of a single hint. All white...no draw of a single clue. Oh! a rare disease no cure means. Struggling to get over with uncertainties intervened then. How in heaven i could clean this mess... Ideas...ideas...such too hard... Chasing with it gone to wild...

Pain was so great that shutted-down all my consciousness...For a moment i was in a place where one dont ever wish to be in. Darkness, pure black, an obscurity that's blinding my eyes. I dont see any single flare of light nor even a fading rays. My mind is almost on the verge of hysteria because i have no inklings about the set where i am. Very sure, i was not in a real world, its like a solitary room for people who fleet from reality...and at that very moment all is coming back to me...seam by seam...from the sphere of bliss to the sudden blast of a painful news... from the happy hearts to the deafening silence of mourn...from anticipating soul to the end of all...I've lost my precious unborn angel...reality slaps me right there and then. Tears was unstoppable... Then my eyes caught a blaze of light yet its unclear, something stirred in me to follow it and while on my way to it i heard a baby's cry...it crippled my heart upon hearing it...i feel my blood was rushing and my

Imagine you were stranded in a playful crowd where in you are a total alien and you found yourself blending with them. You cant even distinguish what connects you to dish-up with their conversation. Unknowingly you are going with the flow without the haste of much effort. Your presence that's so eager to be recognize in any means is that you are working for the whole duration of the charade was paid-off. Well, im lucky to get a hap to circulate with these kind of people and know them even just a bit pieces of their lives. They laugh despite of circumstances they have, they talk with out a trace of hesitation and i myself im sure anyone can mingle with them. They have so much fun and makes you giggle that you wish it will linger on. I am talking with those tribe of gays which so happen to be my funniest, wackiest and talented friends. As their "blah blah" statement - " we are just trapped in a male's body but we are really a true woman inside". Ha ha ha, very

Twenty years of my life had passed, now i am starting for my twenty-first on this planet. Im contemplating those years i spent if did i made it well or just wasted. Very well i could say to myself that even if i didnt made my life to the peak of significance, confidently i have nothing so much to regret. The every dimension of me as a human consist not only myself alone, i breath and i live containing myriad undefined scenes along. I may be lucky or unlucky for some certain things and cant go against the constant law of the universe, still im here...If fleeting is the easiest way to get out of those unbearable hits of befall situations, i already did..., but no, its not getting away that could make me not to feel the jolt. Years and years, accept it or not...people will have a change in different respective aspects of life. We are in a rushing stream where everyone or so to speak abide the current, every thing will flow accordingly to what human does itself. Sometimes a well-planned l

JHAI, If ever you will forget how to redeem yourself, stop for a moment and then let your eyes have a look around and closely see and feel the every beat of life, small or big...we have it in our hands the reasons to live. Things may get misplaced at times but what matters is you know how to put up the pieces back to its place in a better way-again. Today your life is maybe difficult to define, who knows tomorrow you will already find the exact meaning to fill the blank. Yes it is hard to sail on this world, yet we are not alone. Just think that it is just for a moment and it will also be calm. Pain may struck your heart and hit some chords of your sensitivity, dont let it penetrates to your defenses and let your determination faint. It will surpass, making you a stronger person. We dont have the power to undone things but we have the will not redo things we didnt like. Be more patient if things aren't working in accordance to your expectation, you are not a perfe

Amidst through the dark I saw a glimpse of silverheart. It shine could tempt anyone's eyes but you just don't know maybe it bound with lies. My feet lead me to that thing to satisfy my curiosity as a being. Mindless if what would I get to know if "silverheart" really existed. True, I am satisfied... my verdict is right "Silverheart" is just a fickle of mind...